June 4, 2021
Scripture Resource Passage: Exodus 4
Clearing his throat and with downcast eyes Moses may have said, [About this speaking assignment Lord God Almighty,] “Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue” (Exodus 4:10).
God’s anger comes, settling on him like a winter coat during a high-heat-humid afternoon. The heat of judgment should not be missed (Exodus 4:10-17).
Moses underestimates God’s intention—he fears being abandoned, yet again. Perhaps he doubts God’s willingness to provide spiritual support, during the time he will serve as a public witness before the royal court.
Anxiety, fear and trepidation cover Moses, tempering his soul. God’s reply, “Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say” (Exodus 4:12).
Moses insists on wearing God’s anger-coat: “…Pardon your servant, Lord. Please send someone else.” God, becomes angry. “Then the Lord’s anger burned against Moses…” (Exodus 4:12-13).
Perhaps, like me you have made people angry. My family, friends and others have put anger-coats on my shoulders because of what I said, or not said. However, it is not personal anger from others which is the focus in Exodus 4—here is the very real anger of God.
Today, and I observe blessedly, whatever amount of anger God possesses over me being me, grace through Christ, in the power of the Holy Spirit continues to cover this soul (Romans 8:1). The heavy cloak falls from my shoulders and with a thunderous sound the ground around me shudders.
God seems to specialize in choosing spiritually-challenged individuals like Moses and like me. Possibly like you? We have not been automatically judged as spiritually unacceptable incompetents; rather, we have been raised up and clothed with grace.
God chose Moses and there is a deep hiddenness in this choosing. The pain and trauma of Moses birth, secret life and childhood has born foul fruit—Moses is afraid of being abandoned.
Do you experience feelings of being abandoned by God?
Do you have spiritual disciplines which help you trust God?